I was a mediocre student, joined in science group in class XI just after my father’s demise. I could not concentrate on my studies, I was always busy to recollect my father’s memories, thinking about family, my sister, my mother, my future. I always intended to earn money to support my family, to manage my daily expenses & expenses for my studies. I couldn’t find out any light to solve these all. Gradually I was becoming a hopeless, helpless, and frustrated person. But I had already taken an oath to continue my studies from my own income, I have started taking Drawing classes at a local drawing school, I was the youngest teacher at that time (16+ yrs.) Old. But my income was not sufficient to afford my studies & daily needs. I felt very bad, felt Unlucky, frustrated. I was feeling very lonely too.
My mother wanted me to become a Doctor, so I started Homeopathy classes along with my regular 1st Year Bio-Science. On the final examination of my Graduation, my examiner came to know that I was also studying Homeopathy, & intentionally did not give me pass mark in my Practical Examination. I failed to become a Graduate. I wholeheartedly started believing that I was UNLUCKY.
Finally, my mother started telling me that it was mandatory to became graduate to get Govt. job, but I always disliked Govt. job. After 3 yrs. I again took admission and this time became Graduate. But, in these three years I had changed many jobs to earn better. I have joined door to door marketing to sale room-fresheners and other toilettes, later fire extinguishers, then washing machines, joined in Free ad publication as sales executive, then ‘Cease Fire company’, they sent me to New Delhi as a Sales Representative. I spent three years over there. After returning from New Delhi I had started my own business by trading Jeans, T-Shirts and others. To sell clothes, I spent 2 years in Bhubaneswar. But again I failed. In the mean time I got a call from a flour mill company (Odisha based), they sent me to Kathmandu, Nepal. I spent 2 years over there, but as usual failed again and returned back to Kolkata.